Friday, February 8, 2019

whole30 | i did it!

Wow oh wow- how did I ever finish something? I'm honestly shocked by the fact that I stuck to the compliant list- I didn't go out to eat or waste money on food. I googled what I didn't know, and I made sure to scour my labels as if they held winning lottery numbers. 

Which the confirmation of "no sugar, no dairy, no soy, no legumes, no grains, no unpronounceable additives" is basically like winning the lottery when you are looking at things that have to be packaged in some ways! When it comes to things like bacon, sauces, and other things that we take for granted when being able to eat them "normally", it's really nice that there are options out there that aren't laden down with nasty ingredients. Of course, making your own is the best idea, but also, who has all the time or the kitchen supplies to do that?

That being said, I cooked soooooo much that easy things like microwaving a sweet potato with compliant hot dogs and salads became go-tos during my whole30 journey. I'm actually going to write up a few separate posts on what helped me be successful and what helped me survive!

So, how do I feel?

Pretty elated, mostly over my accomplishment of, well, accomplishing something fully!

That being said, I did go off-plan and off my reintroduction plan by eating some junk because today's a hard day (it's my mother's birthday, and it's been the third birthday we've had to celebrate without her being alive anymore). So it's a hard day and my body is feeling the brunt of eating some pizza and sugary things.

Do I regret going off plan?

Honestly, no. I feel like whole30 gave me so many tools and proved to me I can do something. I already have a suspicion of what's hurting more than others. I'm going back to my reintroduction phase tomorrow (which isn't how it works, I KNOW), but it's how it's going to work for me.

Have you done the whole30? How did it affect you? What did you learn?

Tuesday, January 22, 2019

2019 reading list so far...

Hello, everyone! How has your 2019 been treating you so far? Can you believe January is already almost over? 

I can't! 

I've been quite busy with working my new job and also doing the Whole30. I'm on day 14 and it feels like a struggle, but I have a support system that's encouraging me to keep on going. 

Anyways, one of my goals for 2019 is to read more physical books. I spend so much time glued to my phone, especially since I haven't had much of a social life since moving from Washington. Reading physical books calms, centers, and also transports me to new worlds that can help take away stress and anxiety! 

My favorite books are medieval fantasy books, but I'm trying to read more modern books recently. 

This is my stack of books that I'm going to attempt to read this year. I don't want it to grow till I've actually finished these books. The stack on the left are ones I actually found at the dollar store. The ones on the right are ones I got on good deals from Barnes and Noble. The two on top are gifts, one from Ash (Anne of Green Gables, which will be a reread for me) and Pinocchio from my dad. 

Do you have a stack of books for your 2019 reading so far? If so, tell me the ones you're either going to read first, or are most excited to get to! 

Wednesday, January 2, 2019

a love letter for the new year

I wanted to set my year off right... It's become very trendy to pick a simple word for the new year to hopefully set how the mood will be for your for the rest of the year. 

I've thought about it, and wondered if 'balance' or 'productivity' would be good words to choose. Of course, they very much are, but... This year, I've chosen a different word.


This year is bound to be full of it, and I find I do my best work when it's done in love and done with love supporting it from others. When I feel love and when I give love, everything really does have a wonderful rose tint to it. Love makes you feel romantic and whimsical and beautiful and weightless. 

I want to feel so much of that. 

Already, I've experienced so much love and it's only been 24ish hours into the new year. 

A major shout out to my best friend across the pond, Amy, who sent me a lovely message. 

Amy, I wish you growth and prosperity. Fun and joy, and of course, love. 

To my other friends, my message is much the same. 

We all deserve love and kindness and happiness. 2018, for so many, was a difficult year, and I think a great deal of us felt hatred, anger, apathy, and overwhelming despair at the prospects we've faced. To be very fair, so many threats and uncertainties loom over us, and we can never be sure what the future holds, but sometimes- just sometimes, it's those little moments where we see a flower blooming and we can feel a small kindling of love. 

So, 2019, we've just met, but I already love you and I hope you will love me in return ♥

Monday, December 31, 2018

farewell, 2018

2018 really was an interesting year for me.

I tried a few new things and learned failure all over again. It's humbling, as usual, to learn you cannot succeed in everything you want to. It's even more humbling to have someone else tell you that, and to have your failures put right in front of your face. 

As I sit here and reflect, many wonderful things that I did come to my mind. 

- I picked up crocheting again, and got back into learning how to knit
- I started to blog after a long hiatus (still getting the hang of it, but I'm doing it!)
- I learned to get over my fear of setting my plans to the side if it meant it would upset or lightly inconvenience someone
- I've written A LOT this year!
- I made plans that will benefit my future and get me to a much happier space
- I started to #adult more

Now, onto 2019...

Happy New Year // あけましておめでとうございます

Monday, December 3, 2018

BLOGMAS | "classic" foods i love to eat during christmas

Hi all! I apologize for not posting yesterday for the *official* Blogmas day 2, but there were some family issues going on that needed time to be addressed. Thanks to those on twitter who sent well-wishes! 

In other news- I have a second job! I'm trying to save up money for some big plans, but the current part time I have isn't cutting it anymore. So I've picked up another job and will hopefully get going really soon! Again, thank you to twitter fam that sent love and support for the interview.

Anyways, I thought I would quickly write up my official day two of Blogmas on some recipes we typically make during the Christmas season in my family. (I'm waiting for my preworkout to kick in and I think it's kinda making me jumpy already).

Photo by from Pexels

"yummy potatoes" aka the Mormon standard for funerals/get togethers/parties/anything, really, funeral potatoes

Apparently this stuff is being packaged and sold now? We've always made it from scratch. My mom came from a Mormon background (as for me? agnostic, you didn't ask but I had to clarify), so we've had a lot of "classic Mormon" dishes growing up. 

She thought that funeral potatoes sounded too sad, so she always called them yummy potatoes for us because, well, they are! 

2. Ham, ham, thank you, ma'am. 

I love a good Christmas ham. Turkeys kinda suck and roasted chicken goes almost along the same vein (it's also just not a very "yay" type of food for me since I eat chicken daily). But a Christmas ham? Mmm, mm, mm! 

3. Rolls! 

I like to make this easy artisan bread that I learned how to make back in high school when I took advanced cooking (seriously, this was the easiest class in the world AND I got free food!)

Here's a quick link to the EASIEST, YUMMIEST bread ever! If you don't like a super hard crusty crust (my grandma can't eat it), put the pan of water in at the same time with the bread instead of pouring it into a hot pan. 

4. Gravy

I could eat gravy and mashed potatoes, gravy on rolls, gravy on ham- I mean... There aren't many things on a classic Christmas spread that you can't gravy-fy. I won't link to a gravy recipe because everyone does it so differently!

What's your fave classic Christmas foods?